It's been a long time since I've been still. I've had such a rigorous schedule running for the past nine months and while I've had rest days, I haven't had them several in a row. It just feels so weird to not be running right now. To be honest, I've felt a little lost this week.
I've been thinking so much about this time of rest and healing for me. I know it's very important that I am allowing my body to heal and my bones to strengthen, but I've been wrestling with exactly what that means for me right now. Running was not just a physical activity this year. God has shared so many unbelievable Spiritual moments with me while I've been running. He has birthed new ideas, new dreams, new passions, times of comfort and encouragement all while I've been running. I can't believe how much I miss going for a long run and spending hours connecting with God's heart.
I know the enemy would love nothing more for this time of rest to also cause me to lose my focus and passion with my Heavenly Father. The past nine months, I've had scheduled opportunities to spend time with God. I've only had the boot on a matter of days, but I feel so lack in my prayer life right now. I know that just because I can't run right now does not mean that my prayer life and time spent finding the Father's heart should rest too.
I know that I am physically weak right now, but I choose to remain Spiritually strong. I know that while my body is broken right now, I have each and every breath that God allows me to breathe as an opportunity to hear His voice. I have so many doubts and questions flooding my mind, but I choose to have faith that trusts the hand and heart of the God of the Universe. I choose to believe that my flesh may fail, but my God never will. I know God's Spirit is strong in me! This year has been about Audacious Faith... Faith to trust what He says, to know that He is good and His love is great... To be broken inside and give Him my life... To Surrender...